Where do I even start? Lord knows I have a list of insecurities long enough to start and finish writing a book… Lately, with all that has been going on for me, I have been thinking about my insecurities (oh, and fears) a lot. Some of them are deep rooted and others are a little more superficial. When I think about what I am most insecure about now it's largely focussed on two separate issues. First, my self-image and second, sharing my self-image through blogging. I don't want to sit here and pretend that my life is perfect. When I set out to blog this year I knew I would have to face some of my biggest fears, namely my crippling social anxiety LOL, but seriously, I am super paranoid when it comes to this stuff.
Instead of trying to fix all my insecurities and fears, I’ve decided to try and utilise them to challenge my boundaries by creating and doing the things I want to do. What I mean is that without having them in the first place I wouldn't strive to do the things I want to with the gusto they require; my fears and insecurities essentially feed my ambitions. Looking at the superficial, I am super self-conscious. Unlike all those boss big time style and fashion bloggers out there, I do not I REPEAT I DO NOT have a flat stomach, my legs aren't separated by the much sought after thigh gap, I sweat profusely (hyperhidrosis), I breakout on the regular, I feel like my head is two shapes at once, my hair just never does what I tell it to, I am on the curvier side without even having any particular shape (like wtf, thanks genes) and my skin all over just isn't #goals. I literally just made myself sound like a major troll... I can assure you I don't live under a bridge. But you know what, I have realised all those things are going to take a lot of time for me to physically or mentally change and if I wait around for those to be "perfect," starting my blog would never happen. I am trying to flip my insecurities of not fitting in with todays norms of visual identity, into something I can be proud of. So, you know what? Im definitely going to showcase outfits I haven't had the confidence to wear, even if I don't look like how “I should” in them.
This week, my outfit is inspired by Realisation Par's Naomi Wild Things Skirt. If you're an anybody on Instagram, you'll know this slinky silk number adorns all the coolest style bloggers out there. I mean, if there is one thing that maybe makes me fit in with the rest is owning this one garment. You'll nearly always see me in a pair of jeans with some sort of blouse/jumper, but no more! This skirt is everything, it literally moves beautifully. It is without a doubt one of my favourite investment pieces this year. And guess what? Im feeling all kinds of confident in it. Non flat stomach and all.
So, when I say real everyday life is a part of what my blog is, that is exactly what I mean. Know that behind every photoshoot there are elements of my total awkwardness and also just me and my girl doing what we usually do: walking around London drinking maybe a bit too much coffee.
P.s. To keep it real with you guys, all the images used for this post are not edited and no filters were used. #nofilter!
Shop the look:
Leopard Print Skirt - Realisation Par Naomi Wild Things
Black Long Sleeve Top - Alexander Wang, similar here
Suede Ankle Boots - Topshop
Bag - Fendi
Sunglasses - Le Specs, similar here
Photography by Hayley Ku'unani - Instagram @thoualone