Dressing up the Dictionary: Expectations

It’s a New year and I have a whole new set of expectations. They can fall flat or be exceeded and until things happen you forever live in the unknown. I used to get the worst anxiety about a year ending and not knowing what was going to happen, but not this time. 2018, to quote Ariana Grande, thank you, next. I am so ready for all the challenges I will face this year, especially because I have found my footing with what I want for myself. So what is it exactly that I expect in the year to come, you ask?

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What I learnt last year is there really are two things which remain a constant: change and of course, your expectations. In fact, they totally work hand in hand. Everything you expect is always changing but you have them nonetheless. Of course, change is an inevitable fate and it doesn’t cease to exist. What 2018 really opened my eyes up to is the notion of “anything can happen.” It was the things I least expected (or didn’t at all for that matter) which changed so much for me, including what I expected from myself.

I expect to push myself outside of my comfort zones, to try and explore the things I love doing and not stay home so much (as cosy as it is), to learn, to love and most importantly I expect to be valued and to value myself.

I am excited to see where this year takes me, especially now that I have embarked on this blogging journey. At the beginning of 2018, I didn’t anticipate I would be doing what I am doing now. But by the end of 2019, with my new path and a clearer direction, I expect to see a growth from the hard work I put into writing (and shopping hahaha) in my pursuit to dress up the Dictionary. Plus, it means I get to hang out in très très chic places like this one (The Hari) which always makes for a great photo. For this words look I wanted to portray what expectations can look like in literal way. Just your every day jumper and jeans but with the addition of those red bottoms as a symbol of what I expect for myself; the very best.

A.x

Shop the Look:

  1. Pink Mohair Jumper, H&M

  2. Straight Leg Jeans, Topshop, Similar here

  3. Pointed Sling back heels, Christian Louboutin, Similar here

  4. Necklace assortment: Amelia Pendant - Cinco Store, Zodiac Pendant - Vanity&Rose, Mother of Pearl Pendant - Astley Clarke , Chanel Pendant from a selection at the Bond St Boutique

Dressing up the Dictionary: Animalistic

One trend this A/W 18 I have been so on board with is animal print. I have always loved it and in all honesty, I used to have an apprehension about wearing it before now because it’s so bold. The kind of bold which gets you perplexed looks on the tube… I mean, it’s not as if I have been wearing anything zany, it’s just that people can dress so boringly these days and aren't used to seeing something different. As a result of the trend blowing up right now my wardrobe is, not so slowly, filling up with various animal print patterns ranging from leopard to snake with the odd feather in between. I’m literally obsessed.

On a deeper (and maybe more obscure) note, I chose the word Animalistic for this look not just because of my obsession with the print, but also because these days I like animals more than I do humans. Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends and family, but people in general can just be so… meh, basically. I sometimes look at my cat Mink and want to be her instead of being a human. Life just looks so much easier for her. She gets fed, she has a big old house to roam around in at her pleasure, she gets to sleep all day and she basically doesn't have to worry about anything. Also, let’s face it, when a cat is sleeping the levels of ultimate comfort and coziness are majorly enviable.

As Doris Day once said: '“I’ve never met an animal I didn’t like, and I can’t say the same about humans.” Yes, Doris, yes. I feel you.

Alright, obscure note aside, I have opted for a very instagrammable outfit this week (if I do say so myself). This Zara snake print skirt is hitting the nail on the head with the animal print trend, and I love the tones and the smaller details like the buttons along the top. I decided to pair it with a very cozy black jumper from Acne Studios, which I shrunk in the wash, but you know what? It totally works and I still love it. To finish the look off I wore my winter go to over the knee boots (they kept me so warm!) and oversized shearling jacket to add a masculine contrast to the femininity of the skirt.

I mean, you just can’t go wrong with a bit of animal print in your life, and more importantly you certainly can’t go wrong with loving animals. If wearing the print is the closest I will get to being one, then yeah I am totally on board. Thank you A/W 18!

A.x

Shop the Look:

  1. Black Wool Jumper, Acne Studios

  2. Snake Print Skirt, Zara

  3. Suede Over the Knee Boots, Stuart Weitzman

  4. Sunglasses, Celine Similar here

  5. Bag, Gucci

Dressing up the Dictionary: Maintaining

If there’s one thing I find very difficult, it’s maintaining things.

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That’s because my mood disorder has a plan of it’s own. Cue journal excerpt dated 16.07.18: “It is really hard to maintain or upkeep the use of journalling… Even though I understand it’s cathartic value, I don’t like that it doesn't make things feel better instantly… The irony is I'm so obsessed with maintaining what I set out to do.” I pretty much left it there and didn't revisit the subject again, until now.

Why now? Because I feel at a loss with everything I am doing, and I am exhausted by my expectation of instant gratification. The same sentiment of wanting to feel better straight away has trickled down to my pursuit of becoming a lifestyle blogger. Honestly, I didn't think about what maintaining the process would really entail. I quickly learnt that there is a shady side to the community of lifestyle bloggers; nearly all of them are buying their followers and engagement. It explains why trying to drive in the traffic to my own website and Instagram has been so damn slow. We live in a world where everything is instantly obtainable, and it would seem cheating your way to get there is the norm.

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Excuse me, but I did not work that much harder to prove myself and my capabilities against all odds, to be told that paying my way into things is “all that matters.” Well, guess what? MY EXPERIENCE IS MY WORTH. If anything, the people I went to school with (think rich beyond realms imaginable and then quadruple that amount) have encouraged me to do the exact opposite of buying your way through life. Granted, it would be lovely to amble along Bond Street purchasing whatever I want, but I want that to be something I have TRULY earned. You don't go to work expecting to pay you're way through it. Everything you EARN (not buy on a dodgy website) pays for all that you do: Commuting, check. Morning coffee, check. Going out, check. Eating, check. The clothes on your back, check. Travelling, check. Car, check. Bills, check. Everything, check. Did you pay your boss to give you all that? *cough* Didn’t think so.

Maintaining my path to a blogging career is proving to be super hard, it will probably induce some kind of mental breakdown, but I am willing to take that risk. Haha, I just realised what being passionate about something really feels like, #growingup. It’s a combination of feeling sick and insanely high levels of determined all at once. I’ll continue feeling this way and putting all my hard work into what I do, because I believe I can do it WITHOUT LYING to everyone who decides to follow me. As a result, I will be thankful you're a human and not a damn bot.

*Sigh* All I know is if there is one thing I can maintain, it’s my honesty, both with myself and my followers. I would rather that then simply have a number (because that’s all it is) on my platforms just for appearance sake. If it fails, wearing all black-a tone that will never go out of fashion-and drinking coffee will have to be maintenance enough.

A.x

Shop the Look:

  1. Chunky Knit Sweater, H&M Similar here

  2. Faux Leather Skinny Trousers, Zara Similar here

  3. Suede Ankle Boots, Topshop

  4. Wool Biker Coat, Sandro

  5. Bag, Stella McCartney