Dressing up the Dictionary: Hopeful

Hoping is born from both negative and positive situations. Honestly without it over the years I definitely wouldn't have gained some of things I really wanted. The old saying “if you don’t ask, you don't get” comes to mind, and when you think about it, asking is the same as hoping. Woah, totally just got into a head spiral over that thought. 

Anyway… existential thought process over, lately I have neglected discussing anything mental health, which is very much part of my every day. If you have read some of my blog posts already you'll know that I am diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and if you haven’t, well, now you know. I suppose the topic isn't one I can just whip out in a blog about a guide to buying the cosiest coats now, can I? In any case, I wanted to take this topic as an opportunity to point out why I really believe in the importance of hoping. 

Given the nature of being extremely depressed, it’s a no brainer that one would lose ALL hope about everything. That includes living, which yes, is very deep but very very true. I have had periods of time where I stopped believing anything good could ever happen to me, frankly because I didn't see the point anymore. It’s a dark and abyss like feeling. Coming out of that mood and state of mind sheds new light on the positive things about life. I see them differently and with more hope than if I didn't come out from that black vacuous hole. 

As I set out on this blogging path I am hopeful for all the things I can get out of doing it. For example, I hope to own this beautiful coat from Verheyen London one day. I want to keep buying the luxury items I am total sucker for whether thats straight from the store itself or second hand from places like Vestiaire Collective. I hope to become the presence I am aiming to be and make a living out of this. The thing is too, I can only hope about these possibilities because I can’t foresee my future and what it may or may not bring.

The other great thing about hope is that it has taught me to be grateful for what I have already, it’s likely I would not have those things without having hoped for them. Like good old Epicurus said “…Remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.” A.x

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  1. Leopard Print Coat, Verheyen London

  2. Straight Leg Jeans, & Other Stories

  3. Bag, Gucci via eBay, similar here on Vestiaire Collective

  4. Pointed Perspex Heels, Gianvito Rossi via Vestiaire Collective, similar here


Dressing up the Dictionary: Life

Life; the existential topic which often leads you down this vacuous hole of both wonder and disappointment along the way.

I’m definitely not even going to attempt to break down what it any time soon. Instead, you know how these days it’s a big deal to keep a gratitude diary? Well I want to share with you some of the things I am grateful for in my life.

If it weren't for the quirks that make me laugh until my asthmatic wheeze is in full force, I would be a pretty miserable soul through and through. I am so grateful for my sense of humour, over the past year it’s really kept me going. Queue Reggae Shark. If you know, you know. So, ordinarily everything I wear I source carefully and think about in depth before purchasing, but on this occasion the Reggae Shark t-shirt was a complete no brainer and I needed it immediately. My friend and I stumbled upon him in the realms of Youtube, and found ourselves in total hysterics. Now he lives in my wardrobe, and I am totally happy for him to be a part of my ever expanding (seriously, running out of space guys) clothing collection.

Verheyen London Emerald Long Line Leopard Print Coat

Something I am learning ever so slowly but surely is to believe in myself and my capabilities. Patience is a virtue as is known so widely, and I am holding on to that notion because in time I hope my capabilities pay off, literally. Now I've embarked upon my journey as a blogger I am understanding the feeling of believing in what I do with full force. This is cemented by insanely beautiful brands like Verheyen London taking interest in what I have to offer, and I am really thankful and proud to be wearing their stunning Long Line Leopard print coat in emerald for this shoot.

This outfit is a representation of my life as I know it now. I am feeling the growth in my self esteem more and more (who knew a luxury coat could do that for you!?). This coat is an emblem , of positivity which I don't always believe is there, but I need to despite it hiding in the shadows. If I could summarise in any way what life is about, it’s a matter of taking things as they are and in my stride while knowing that having patience will always pay off. After all, you can only see where life is taking you as it unravels with each step, living in the present one day at a time. To the unknown! Of which I am grateful for what it teaches me as my life unfolds.


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P.s. For a dose of total random hilariousness, here is the aforementioned and legendary Reggae Shark!

  1. Green Leopard Print Coat, Verheyen London

  2. Reggae Shark T-shirt, Ebay

  3. Lady Dior Lambskin Large bag, Dior

  4. Pointed Silver Cap Ankle Boots, Topshop